C. Thomas Daniels obit. 11 June, 1997

November 26, 2011

Needing some warmth; a break from Northborough
(Wherever that is: north of Westborough
and east of Southborough – a wide spot in
Route 20 with 4 gas stations and houses in the woods)
I went to visit Tom Daniels in Hell.

He met me naked, having given away
the shirt on his back and everything else.
“How are things up there?” he asked. “Cold,”
I said, “and too many trees reaching out
to kill each other, those I love, and me.”

“We don’t have trees here. Too hot,” he said.
“Have a beer.” I declined. He reached
behind him to grab one from a refrigerator.
“How do you rate that?” “They seem to like me here,”
he said, “I get a lot of perks. Just no clothes.”

I twisted a little inside, remembering
The clothes he sent my way when he worked at Sears
Sports jackets, pants, sweaters, underwear.
I never paid a dime. When they caught up
with him, he asked me for money, but I hadn’t any.

Still he stayed my friend. Why? Because
I drank like him. Because when I wasn’t looking
he chased my girl friends, and I was after his
(particularly Carol Kiloski). Because we were
both spoiled kids who used to have money.

1967. Too old to be kids now; no excuse.
Get a job; dodge the draft; get out of town;
drink the scotch and get on the motorcycle, dammit.
Skull fracture in uniform on the way to Fort Dix.
Dilantin and beer for the rest of Tom’s unnatural life.

“How do you like Hell?” I asked engagingly.
“Not too bad,” he said. “You don’t get
older. Some well known people are here.
It is not like being alive. There is certainty.
Nobody cares if I lie. There will be beer.”

“I will have no clothes. I will have nothing
to give away, and so no friends. No internal organs.”
“Why no organs? Do you not need them?”
“No, they got destroyed before I died.
Although it is also true that I do not need them.”

“The last thing I remember is falling
down a flight of stairs. First my spleen,
liver and pancreas, then heart, stomach,
lungs and intestines were ruptured, liquefied.
All weakened by alcohol, and all dissolved.”

“Did you fall or were you pushed, by chance?”
“I don’t know and I don’t care,” he said,
and reached behind him for another beer.
Wherever Tom was in Hell always was
a refrigerator full of beer behind him.

I owe him much. The clothes; the damage to
his van the night I sideswiped that Mercury
on Duncan Road in it. He was generous and had
a jet of brown hair that fell from his forehead
between his smiling blue eyes. A true friend.

“Why did you come here?” he asked, seriously.
“And how? Was it expensive? Did you fly?”
“Expedia,” I said. “Quite cheap. No hotel.
No auto. The earth just opens and you go.
And I hadn’t seen you before you died.”

“I didn’t get a chance. You were drinking,
every day, a lot, and had been for years,
and I avoided you for that reason, having
my own problem. But I need to tell you, Tom,
how much you mean to me, dear dead friend.”

And then I saw the old, slow grin break out.
This, in the red flickering light on the expanse
of his naked, curiously baby-like body
turned him young again for a second. I
remembered his former looks: handsome; well dressed.

“Where do we sleep tonight, old friend?” I asked.
And the grin vanished. He reached for a beer.
“Let’s get this straight,” he said in a tired voice.
“There is no sleep here. Sleep is about change,
waking in the morning with something to live for.”

“There is no hope here. No change. Just beer.”
And I realized that Tom had finally got
what he wanted for himself in life: nothing.
For a place to sleep, I left Hell a day early,
through the same fissures whence I came.

How long will it take to get to the Moon?

July 6, 2011

Friday, October 4, 1957, 5:30 PM. Troop 29 was camped out in the woods just across the Maryland state line from the Triangle. My father had driven several of us with our equipment in his ’55 Mercury station wagon. The parents were gone now. Our tents were pitched and campfires started. Eddie H. had just made an asshole out of himself by running around with his pants off with a hard on. A couple of Scouts slapped him with towels as he ran by. Everybody was screaming. The scoutmaster, Mr. Krantz, didn’t pay any attention. He never paid much attention to ordinary Scouts. The handsome Eagle Scout, Larry Kneisley, and two Life scouts, bedecked with merit badges and other talismans stood off to one side, looking on disapprovingly.

Evening came and the smell of hot dogs and burning marshmallows wafted between the tents. Tired, we sat around on logs, eating and talking. There were no mosquitoes. We talked, as usual, about sex. Alfie H. was supposed to have blown a hamster. Eddie H. had shown us that he could pee with a hard on. Al S.’s sister, Lucy S., known as “Juicy Lucy” and her friend Susy S. were supposed to be lesbians. But mostly the conversation was about blow jobs – such-and-such was supposed to have blown such-and-such. I didn’t get it. I leaned over to my tent-mate, Fred Stow, a Tenderfoot like me, and muttered, “What is the purpose of a blow job? I don’t understand why anyone would want one.” Fred leaned back and replied in a low voice, “Well, it’s to get the come out.” Fred’s father had worked on the Manhattan Project, so he should know.

Somebody blew taps on a bugle and we turned in to our tents. Fred, in his sleeping bag, was listening to his transistor radio – a novelty at that time: a plastic cube two or three inches on a side with a pair of earpieces. Fred would not let anybody else listen to his radio. After a few minutes he took out the earplugs and turned off his flashlight. He left the radio in the space between us. When the grunting noises of his masturbation had subsided and I figured he was asleep I took the radio, put the headphones in my ears and turned it on.

I turned the tiny tuning dial carefully. A bunch of static. There wasn’t any frequency calibration on the dial, but by tuning all the way to the low end I was able to pick up WFIL, Philadelphia, playing Top 40 on 560 kilocycles. I listened to “Happy, Happy Birthday, Baby” and “Jailhouse Rock”, but when Johnny Mathis came on I decided to change frequency and soon, on WOR AM 710 from New York, I heard something so astounding that I still cannot quite believe it. The announcer’s voice was deep, tense:

“The Naval Research Laboratory announced thirty minutes ago that it has recorded two crossings of the Soviet earth satellite over the United States. It said that one had passed near Washington. Soviet reports indicate that the satellite is broadcasting on frequencies near twenty and forty megacycles.”

“U. S. military experts have said that the satellite would have no practicable military application in the near future. They said, however, that study of such satellites could provide valuable information that might be applied to flight studies for intercontinental ballistic missiles.”

“The Soviet satellites could not be used to drop atomic or hydrogen bombs on the United States, scientists have said. Their real significance would be in providing scientists with important new information concerning the nature of the sun, cosmic radiation, solar radio interference and static-producing phenomena radiating from the north and south magnetic poles. All this information would be of inestimable value for those who are working on the problem of sending missiles and eventually men into the vast reaches of the solar system.”

I felt a cold feeling. I wondered if this is what it felt like to be grown up. There had been no doubt in the announcer’s voice. It was true. I considered waking the other boys to tell them, but decided not to. I knew what their reaction would be. “Oh, bull shit. The Russians claim to have invented everything.” So I carefully replaced Fred’s radio in exactly the position he had left it and lay on top of my sleeping bag, thinking. It was simply not possible. The Russians could not be allowed to be first in space. But what was to be done? The United States was behind. Who would be the first to send astronauts to the moon. How long would it take? 1972, I thought to myself. By 1972 the United States will send rockets with astronauts to the moon.

In the morning nobody seemed to know the news except me. After breakfast and knot-tying practice I approached Larry Kneisley. Larry was two years older than I, an Eagle scout: a friendly, serious guy whom I admired a lot. He was a little intimidating, but I was able to talk to him, and shared the Sputnik news with him. As I expected, he was not at all dismissive or skeptical. He shared my concern that the Russians could not be allowed to be first in space. “We have to get there first,” he said. “To the Moon, you mean?” I asked. “Yes, to the Moon. We have to become astronauts. How long do you think it will take?” “Well,” I responded, “probably 1970 or 1972.” “Good,” said Larry, “I’ll see you on the Moon in 1972,” and we shook hands on it.

Christmas

January 1, 2011

1971 was growing dark and cold again. The new WBCN antenna on its mast at the Prudential Center was whipped by storms so violently that the aircraft-warning lights went out. I stood on the roof of the Pru, bracing myself against the wind in a sheltered corner, watching the mast sway back and forth. Guy wires would have to be installed to stabilize the tower. Don Prescott, a rigger buddy of Arnie Woo-Woo Ginsburg’s, came down the next day from Maine to do some previously scheduled work, and I told Arnie I would ask Don to change the bulbs in the tower.

After Don left I couldn’t remember whether I has asked him to change the bulbs. Oh my God, I thought, what will Woo-Woo do if he finds out the bulbs weren’t changed? What if a plane crashes into the Pru? I worked myself into an agony of fearful expectation. Night was coming. I went down to ground level to watch the tower to see if the lights would come on. Nothing happened. Now I was demented. I rushed up through elevators, concrete corridors and up steel staircases and hatchways back to the roof of the Pru and, with a spare, huge bulb lashed with hookup wire to my belt loops, prepared to climb the tower myself in the gathering darkness. Just as I put one foot in the rung at the bottom of the tower the flashing red beacons came on.

Two weeks later I stood on the Pru watching Don and his assistant do the guy wire work. It was a clear, cold mid-December morning, calm for once, and the work was soon done. I was feeling a little woozy, and was glad to get down into the warm transmitter room. As long as I was there, I took the clipboard with the logs, read the transmitter meters, and filled in the entries. Since I had been entertaining girlfriends at 122 Mt. Auburn St. and hanging out at the Plough I had not made it in to the transmitter for a few days, so I back-filled some entries, fabricating values for plate current, plate voltage and output power.

The night before had been tough. About 6:00 P. M, a female record-turkey had come in to the WBCN studios to do her Christmas rounds. I do not remember what label she represented, but I will not forget her pheromone-charged aura. Her long hair and her dress draped around her supple, womanly, slender form as she went from DJ to DJ and to me, handing out hand crafted wooden-capped cylinders, each wrapped with a ribbon and stuffed with an ounce and a half of Panama Red. “Merry Christmas, Bill,” she said softly to me, pressing the tube into my hands and herself for a second against my body, “We know your work. We appreciate your work.” I did not see her again, but, that night, after a few hours at the Plough, one of my girl friends had shown up at 122 Mt. Auburn St. and I had been up most of the night. So I was a little bit shaky this December morning as I hurried down Stuart Street through the interminable frigid winds around the Prudential and the gaping, skeletal John Hancock tower.

I had not been in the WBCN studio long enough to take off my jacket when Arnie Woo-Woo Ginsburg asked me to come in to the office. T. Mitch was sitting there. Arnie came right to the point. “Bill, did you take the transmitter readings on Monday and Tuesday?” “Yes,” I lied. “Then what about this,” said Arnie, as he took a sheet out of a folder and showed it to me. It was a transmitter log, filled in with the correct values for Monday and Tuesday and signed by Arnie. “I’m going to have to let you go, Bill,” Arnie said. T. Mitch smiled silently.

It was not quite over. Woo-Woo was fired himself within days by the smiling T. Mitch, probably as a result of an argument over T. Mitch’s plan to move the WBCN studios, as well as the transmitter, to the Prudential; a plan that Arnie thought extravagant and unnecessary. Al Perry was appointed Station Manager and asked me to continue working, as Brian Edgerton, my successor, didn’t seem to be ready to take over all the technician work. So I continued to report for studio work until, in February, 1972, a year and three weeks after I first arrived at WBCN, T. Mitch noticed that I was still there. Al appeared in the shop. “I can’t protect you against this stuff,” Al said, “just leave now.”

The Big M

November 28, 2010

As far as I know E. A. Poe did not write a story about waking up in a coffin, having been buried, struggling for air, freedom and life. I suppose the subject is too commonplace to have interested the genius. My neighbor Ed Hood introduced me to a young couple who helped me solve my coffin-problem. “George and I tear down walls. Can we see yours?” Natalie asked.

I was a little dubious – after all, my apartment had been rented to me by R. M. Bradley Co. Maybe I should tell them that I was going to remove the wall between the coffin-sized bedroom and the narrow kitchen. “Sure,” I said. George and Natalie took one look. “Not a problem,” said George, in a pronounced Russian accent. “It be all done when you get home.” “Can I pay you?” I asked. “Nah,” said George, “no big deal.”

I did have to get to work. The Big M was in town for a couple of days and I had promised him that C. P. and I would help him move a queen-sized bed into a Back Bay apartment occupied by one of his girl friends. We got to WBCN, and M, generous as always with his time, sat down with C. P. and me to smoke a bone and chat before we set off to move the bed. I won’t try to reproduce M’s jive, rapid fire rap. In fact, his larger than life persona was a put-on, and when we sat down to talk quietly about Radio and the artists his label controlled (Crosby, Stills, Nash & Young; Led Zeppelin; Roberta Flack; Aretha Franklin; The J. Geils Band; Jonathan Edwards (Atco), to name a few) M spoke an English at least as standard as mine. I was surprised at the answer he gave (“No”) when I asked him if he had ever considered becoming a DJ. To me it seemed obvious. M could out-talk anybody, and knew more about music and the music business than anybody. “Why not?” I asked. M was patient with me, but I could hear a little disdain in his response: “There isn’t enough money in it, man.”

My eyes were opened. It was a simple theorem in music business: M wouldn’t make enough money as a DJ. There was a lot of money in popular music. Radio was essential to making music popular. The money wasn’t in radio. Therefore most of the money was somewhere else, and radio was a tool, an instrument of the music business.

I watched, through the double-paned tilted, soundproof studio glass, Mario and T. Mitch shaking hands. Mitch held M’s hand as if he were holding a fish, using just the fingertips. I could see M’s lips moving rapidly. M’s afro, white suit and purple ruffled shirt compared very favorably with the elbow-patched tweed jacket and the hair of T. Mitch, thinly combed over the depressions left from brain surgery. I wondered if Mitch were going to have a seizure. After a few seconds, smiling frigidly, Mitch slid his hand away and retired into his office. I was reminded of what Kenny Greenblatt explained to me when I asked him why Mitch ever consented to WBCN going rock, when it was obvious that Mitch had no sympathy for either the music or the generation that loved it. Kenny poked my chest lightly with a finger, to emphasize each word: “Because for the first time he was selling some time, man.”

C. P. and I retired to my apartment to share our reward for our bed-moving labors: a small silk purse containing about 30 grams of a popular crystalline white powder. When we entered my apartment I was shocked to find the wall between my bedroom and the kitchen gone. All that was left was a mark on the floor where the wall used to be and an outlet box dangling from the ceiling from an electrical cable. All the debris was gone. There wasn’t a speck of dust.

We sat on my home-made plywood and foam rubber sofa in the living room. C. P. was more interested in the white South American powder than I, and he quickly consumed his fifteen grams. He became increasingly excited. All he could talk about was M. “He is a genius! I am just really, really impressed.” Soon C. P.’s delirium was quenched by beer and I let him collapse on the sofa. I was glad he had snorted up his entire share of the white powder, because he had to drive the next day back to the upstate New York commune where he and my sister lived, and his alcohol-saturated driving was bad enough without adding powerful stimulants to the mix.

In spite of our closeness, I never really succeeded in becoming C. P.’s friend. The obstacle to our friendship should have been obvious. I remember one early summer morning in the Triangle near Landenberg, a few years before, driving to work and coming upon C. P.’s 1959 Ford Fairlane stopped in the middle of the road. I got out, expecting to find the car empty and broken down, but C. P. was slumped behind the wheel, of course, passed out, still clutching a whiskey bottle. It is amazing how oblivious we were. My sister married C. P.

The next day I moved my bed into the living room. Then I put a small table in the kitchen, and for the first time I had enough room to begin to cook. There was only the problem of the electrical wire and outlet box hanging from a hole in the ceiling.

My share of the crystalline powder was still in its purse on a window ledge. I looked up at the hole next to the wire, and feeling paranoid as usual, climbed up on the kitchen table and pushed the fifteen grams of white powder in its purse up into the hole past the wire a couple of inches back concealed above the ceiling plaster.

A few days later I came home from working at WBCN, where Crosby, Stills, Nash & Young, Led Zeppelin, Roberta Flack, Aretha Franklin, The J. Geils Band and Jonathan Edwards were on the air more than ever, and found the electrical cable and box gone and the hole neatly patched over. I never found out who performed the patch job – George and Natalie or R. M. Bradley Co. Things just happened in those days, for good or bad. I didn’t ask. I didn’t seem to have to plan or put things in motion. Probably the South American substance is still up in the ceiling at 122 Mount Auburn St., first floor center.

I am grateful to George and Natalie for tearing down my wall. I don’t know what happened to George’s project to compile a dictionary of Russian obscenities. This was an English language work containing the transliterated Russian forms of expressions equivalent to “Ёбанная в рот!” (“fucked in the mouth”) and so on, along with translations. I don’t know if it was ever published. It was a pioneering work of its kind, well before Drummond. I tried to help George edit his photocopied manuscripts. Ed doted on the handsome, athletically built George and, politely, on Natalie as well. Ed was able to find good-looking literati, but never enough of them who were willing to have sex, so there had to be a supplementary stream of cute teenage boys.

C. P. and Hound Dog

November 24, 2010

My brother-in-law C. P. was visiting me at 122 on a pot run. No, C. P. does not stand for “Cabbage Patch” (doll), which had not yet been invented or “Communist Party”, which had, but for for “Carl Parsons.” I still have the suitcase in which I used to carry the marijuana. C. P. and my sister grew on their communal farm in upstate New York. The Samsonite would hold eight pounds of the dry, greenish stuff. Away from the restrictions imposed by my sister, C. P. could drink as much as he wanted and hang around WBCN, trying to score drugs, when I went there to work. So C. P. was at the station the afternoon Hound Dog Taylor and the House Rockers came to the studio to perform live.

I put the four House Rockers right in the studio with Maxanne Sartori. We had tried putting bands out in the office next to Carla’s desk but it didn’t work out – there was too much coming and going and people tripped over the wires. Also, you needed two announcers – one to rap with the band and another to do spots. So I set up mics in the studio. The band also had had their instrument amps. So there were seven of us crammed into the bedroom sized studio: myself, Max, the four jammin’ House Rockers, and C. P., drunk. Within five minutes the temperature had gone to a hundred degrees. The sound level was a hundred twenty decibels. Sweat was pouring off the House Rockers. C. P. and I retreated to the shop. After about a half hour Max suddenly came into the shop and quickly closed the door, cutting off the blast of noise and heat. She leaned her back up against the vibrating door, gasping, looking up at the ceiling. “The smell,” she moaned. “Oh my God, I can’t stand the smell!” Then she darted back into the studio to rap with Hound Dog and pay a couple of spots. Another half hour and she was back. “I can’t get them to leave! How do I get them to leave?”

When the band finally did leave, after a two hour set, I went into the studio to help Max clean up. I coiled up the mic cables while Max sprayed air freshener. C. P. sat in the corner, red-faced, giggling. Tomorrow would be another busy day. The Big M was coming to town.

122: Jim and Ed

October 30, 2010

I had a new apartment at 122 Mt. Auburn St., Harvard Square. Jim Parry had moved into a larger apartment at the same address and offered me his old place. Ed Hood had the third apartment on the ground flood of 122 Mt. Auburn St, along with me and Jim. You will remember Ed as the star of Warhol’s My Hustler. He also had a prominent part in Chelsea Girls. Ed had moved from New York, first to the University of Minnesota, and then to Cambridge in 1969 to enter a Ph. D. program in the English Department at Harvard, but by 1971, when I met him, he had been expelled, his academic career curtailed by a bust for shoplifting in the Harvard Coop.

122 Mt. Auburn Street, across the street from the Blue Parrot and the Club Casablanca, was one entrance into the vast, decrepit Craigie Hall, which also had entrances on University Road. During the Gilded Age Craigie Hall had provided spacious quarters with indoor toilets, running hot water and central heat for Harvard men when the on-campus accommodations in Harvard Yard had none of these. But that was long ago, and there were no more servants, smoking jackets or indoor lacrosse games, as all the Harvard undergraduates had moved back on campus after the creation of a new residence hall system in the 1930′s. There were several WBCN-related figures in residence in Craigie Hall. Peter Wolf (former WBCN DJ and singer in the J. Geils Band); Charles Giuliano, music critic at the Boston Phoenix,, who lived a basement apartment at 4 University Road, where he continually broke down interior walls and expanded toward the dank interior; and others.

Over the years the once-roomy apartments had been subdivided, then divided again. Mine, described as a “1-bedroom”, was about 250 square feet. The bedroom was the size of a large coffin with a high ceiling. The kitchen was so narrow that I cold not turn around without rubbing shoulders against the walls. All the rooms, including the bathroom, had been built inside what was once a single room. But it was mine – I had never had an apartment of my own before, and I loved the place, and loved my neighbors Jim and Ed, too.

Jim you will remember as the only happy DJ at WBCN. Charles was sarcastic, smooth; Norm intense and sexy; Maxanne Sartori, Tommy Hadges and Andy Beaubien knowledgeable, charming, witty; Debbie Ullman spiritual; Sam Kopper sprightly and scattered; John Brody laid back; but Jim was the only one you would describe as a nice guy. He loved the blues, particularly acoustic blues, and seemed oblivious to the snickering comments of the other DJ’s about his “choo-choo train sets.” He just kept on chuggin’ playin’ the blues; his rap a little grainy, a little old for 28.

Ed Hood was a remittance man, originally from Mississippi, where his widowed mother languished, still beautiful and still courted, on the family plantation. Mother and son had a deep affinity, but Ed’s visits at Thanksgiving and Christmas were too often abbreviated by the intervention of the Mississippi State Police in Ed’s endless combinations of automobiles with alcohol and teenage boys. After these incidents Ed’s chagrined mother would give him some extra money and make him go away. Cambridge mostly tolerated him, but Ed’s monthly remittance, no matter how generous, was always quickly spent on the quantities of booze, pot and cocaine needed to entertain his boy friends.

I was aware of the constant nocturnal comings and goings at Ed’s place, and could hear the rock music and male chatter. Before the nightly parties Peter Wolf, always in dark glasses and black leather, slender, his long, straight black hair hiding his face, from which only the large nose protruded, would often visit Ed. During Wolf’s visits I could hear no music from Ed’s apartment; only the muffled sound of intense conversation between the two men.

I did not meet Ed until I had a telephone installed. He must have heard the first ring, and was soon knocking at my door, politely introducing himself in a startling, mellifluous, measured voice. I soon learned that Ed had an unpaid bill of $386.00 owed to New England Telephone, and that his phone had been disconnected. I let Ed use my phone. When he was done with his call, he looked around my apartment. Nothing much to see – a bent piece of foam for a sofa on the living room floor, a few motorcycle parts and two cardboard boxes of books. Ed picked up a book: a small leather bound copy of The Oxford Book of English Verse. “Do you read this?” Ed asked. “Yes,” I said. “Come over to my apartment, will you,” he said, “and have a glass of wine. I want to show you something.” I hesitated. I had been approached sexually by men before and was not interested. But there was something about Ed’s serious tone that allowed me to accept his invitation, and we went next door to his apartment. There he showed me his books. His bedroom was larger than mine, and he had had floor-to-ceiling bookshelves installed on three walls. The shelves were full. Piles of books were here and there in the living room, on the coffee table, in the small kitchen. Ed had an extensive collection of literature and literary criticism, over 2,000 books. As he was showing me his library he turned to me and asked, “How do you pronounce it? ‘litrachoor’ or ‘literchur’?”

I became a daily visitor to Ed’s place. My time was before Wolf, who was also Ed’s student – the early evening. Ed began to fill in some of the lacunae (a word he taught me) in the very mediocre education I had received at Triangle. He taught me the importance of Dante, and gave me reading assignments in Sinclair’s Italian-English edition of The Inferno. He was very unwilling to lend books (a trait I have also acquired; too often I have not got them back), and I soon had to acquire my own copy of Sinclair. I could hold my own with Ed in French literature and language, and in linguistics; but in every other aspect of literature he was by far my superior. He also taught me, oddly, a lot about ethics and morality. It was he, for example, who made me understand that there is no such thing as “bad” weather. I met the literati who drifted in and out of his salon: John Halowell; Gregory Corso; Gerard Malanga. I met Patrick Fleming, who had appeared, as himself, in some Warhol movies with Ed. Patrick was an illiterate Irish immigrant whose native language was Gaelic. I have never seen anything like the bond of devotion and trust that existed between Ed and Patrick. Incomprehensibly to me, the deep love between the two men did not seem to be affected by the constant late night stream of teenagers and 20-something young men in and out of Ed’s bedroom, where, I can assure you, dear reader, they were not looking at books. Patrick’s Irish accent, combined with his relative toothlessness, made it very difficult for me to understand him, but I tried to listen and understand, and I found out that he and Ed talked about daily life: doctor’s appointments; getting a broken window fixed; setting up a bank account. The two had become family, as well as friends, and did things for each other that Ed’s literary friends would never have been bothered with.

There was an unspoken agreement between Ed and me: he would teach me and allow me access to his intellectual and artistic circle; I would let him use my telephone. But I did not like a knock on the door at 3:00 A. M, or, for that matter, 8:00. Once, meanly, at the sound of the knock, I answered the door naked. I will not forget the expression on Ed’s face. His jaw dropped; his eyes widened as he looked me up and down. “Would you like to use the phone?” I asked. “Never mind,” he said, and retreated into his apartment. I had never seen him confused before.

Do you know what a butt-set is, reader? In the days when the Telephone Company actually installed telephones, the installation person would have one of these: a handset-like device with wires coming out of it, hanging from a clip at the belt in such a way that the handset swung against the butt. I had found some old telephones and a butt-set in a pile of junk at the old WBCN transmitter room. One afternoon I determined to explore the basement of Craigie Hall with the butt-set. I was going to get Ed a phone. I went past Jim Parry’s entrance on the first floor down the stairs and past the tiny basement apartment inhabited by a straight-looking young woman who had told me that her rent was $45.00 a month, into the catacombs under Craigie Hall, where I knew there were telephone wires. Occasional incandescent lights tried to dispel some of the gloom, but there were none in the damp alcove, cluttered with old pipes and timbers, where I worked by flashlight, testing each of the pairs with my butt-sett. I found four that had dial tone. Now for the clever part – I had brought along several strands of very fine wire, so fine that so-called “ringing current”, the 90 volt, twenty cycle current that the phone company may still send down the wires to ring a telephone, would fuse the tiny wire – vaporize it if the phone attached to that circuit ever rang. I carefully bridged a piece of the fine wire across each of the four circuits. A few days later I returned. Three of the wires had fused; the fourth was still intact. I removed it, and tested it with my butt-set. Dial tone – nobody had called that line in four days. A few minutes work with needle noses and one of the old phones was attached.

My life changed. I no longer had three or four visits a day from Ed, calling his dates on my phone. Instead I could hear his magnificent voice distantly, from below, sometimes for hours at a time, not loud enough to disturb. One day Jim Parry approached me in the hall. “Have you heard Ed talking all the time in the basement? It sounds like he’s talking on the phone.” “Oh, really?” I said. The young woman from the bottom of the stairs was distraught. She was closer to the action. “Do you know what’s going on? It’s driving me crazy! I’ve asked him to stop, and he says he will, but then he’s doing it again. Shall I call the police?” “Yeah,” I said, “I know what you mean – but let’s give him a chance. I’ll talk to him, OK?”

This went one for about three months. In the meantime I had been fired from WBCN and was spending more time at home, feeling bad. One morning there was a knock on the door and a somber looking Ed asked me to join him in his apartment for some important business. In Ed’s living room was a well dressed man in his 30′s. We all sat down. The man looked at me. “Listen,” he said, “I don’t know your involvement with this but I do know that Ed has been using the Charles Group’s phone lines to make long distance calls, and that it has to stop. I’ve told Ed that this doesn’t have to go any further, as long as it stops. Ed and I were at school here,” the man said, gesturing over his shoulder towards the august institution all around us, “and I don’t want to take this to the authorities, but I will if I have to.” I had tapped the phone of the think tank across Mt. Auburn St. The fourth line in the “hunting group” would only ring when the other three lines were busy, and it had rung. The woman downstairs had gone into the basement alcove and answered the phone, and the jig was up. I felt bad.

Destruction rained down from above

September 12, 2010

“Hey Bill, do you want a volunteer?” Charles asked, sticking his head into the shop, where I sat, lighting a cigarette with the tip of a soldering gun. “Sure”, I said, “does he know anything about electronics?”. “It’s a chick”, said Charles. “I’ll send her back”.

Carlotta sat politely with me in the shop. She tried not to look at a large fruit cake can on the desk, filled with old screws, nuts and bolts. She was about twenty, five-three and a hundred and twenty, very neatly dressed in a tan mid length skirt and conservative black blouse, with black high heels. Her dark hair was pulled back into a bun. She held her bag in her lap. She was a business student at Bentley College and a terrific fan of Charles. If she was disappointed at not being made one of his volunteers, she was too polite to show it. Perhaps she realized that she would not fit in with that adoring cohort of paisley-clad, bra-less pot heads. “I’ll do anything you ask me to do,” she said.

Problem was I couldn’t think of anything for her to do, or anything to do with her. There were certainly things that needed to be done – eighty empty nitrogen cylinders had to be removed from the old transmitter room, for example – but I could not see perfectly groomed Carlotta working on anything meaningful in my dirty, dangerous area. Further, she didn’t drink or use drugs, so there was no way I was going to get it on with her. For lack of something better,
we went to visit the new transmitter, up in the Pru. We walked down Stuart Street near the ascending John Hancock Tower, or “Plywood Palace”, as they had begun to call it, since the new tower’s window’s came crashing out as fast as they could be installed, and were replaced by panes of plywood. Although they tried to keep the sidewalks clean there were pieces of glass, tar paper and miscellaneous debris all around the base of the building.
Plywood Palace, 1971, courtesy of Architecture Week

On the fifty-second floor of the Pru I proudly showed Carlotta the new transmitter installation, and picked up the clip board to take some meter readings. I wrote down the plate voltage and current, and the output power, and since I hadn’t been there the day before, or the day before that, filled in some values for those days, as well, and entered my initials for all three days. “How interesting,” commented Carlotta as we went down the elevator, “I know I can learn a lot just from watching you. Do you have to take those meter readings every day?” “Yeah,” I replied,”but sometimes I miss a day. Nobody really cares. The FCC is going to change that rule soon, anyway, to once a week”.

We emerged into the cold winds around the base of the Pru, and went down the escalator to Boylston Street. “OK”, I said, “come in when you can”. “I’ll see you,” she said. I walked with her as far as the subway in Copley Square. It was four o’clock and the shadows were getting very long. I decided to go back to the studio via Boylston Street. I didn’t want to go too close to the ugly, growing, huge decayed tooth of the John Hancock Tower. I shivered. Even at that distance the unnatural, cold winds generated by the Hancock could be felt.

The next time Carlotta came I was in the studio with Maxanne Sartori, getting ready to change a Stanton cartridge on one of the tone arms. Max said it would be OK if Carlotta sat in the studio and watched her at work. Max was in a good mood and was all over the studio cleaning and talking. When a record cut neared its end she would quickly slip back into the announcer’s chair and fluidly seque into the next cut, quickly cue up a record, then bounce back up to her can of Dust-Off.

“Do you like Rocky and Bullwinkle?” Max cheerfully asked Carlotta. “What?” replied Carlotta, from the corner. “Rocky and Bullwinkle – you know, the flying squirrel and the bull moose. I just think they’re really, really cool,” said Max. “Yeah, sure!” Carlotta replied.

I didn’t see Carlotta for a couple of weeks. Then Charles came into the shop. “Hey, Bill, did you hear about Carlotta?” he asked. “She was coming into the station last week and got hit in the eye with a piece of glass or something when she was going past the John Hancock. It’s really bad”.

The next day Carlotta showed up. She had a large black patch over one eye. She sat quietly next to me in the shop for about a half hour, then got up and left. I never saw her again.

The Offer

August 28, 2010

Arnie Ginsburg called me into the office. T. Mitch was sitting there. Arnie closed the door and asked me to sit down.

“We don’t think the engineer should be part of the Union,” Arnie said. “We are willing to make you Chief Engineer if you will agree to not be part of the bargaining unit. Your pay will be $200.00 a week.”

I hesitated. Two hundred a week. I was making one-twenty. That was a much as Charles made. Max and the others only made one-sixty. Did that mean I could have a Volvo and a nice little apartment, like Charles? Chief Engineer. Ray Riepen had already gone out of his way to point out that I was just a technician, a fixit guy, not a real engineer.

“No,” I said. Arnie’s peculiar, greenish color darkened. T. Mitch hadn’t said anything. He hunched over in his tweedy sport jacket and looked at the surface of his desk. I could see the liver spots and post operative depressions very clearly on his scalp. I got up and walked out.

I went to find Danny Schechter. He was in the tiny newsroom at his desk, surrounded by stacks of old copy pulled off the wire, magazines and pieces of typewritten manuscripts. Cardboard boxes full of cassette tapes filled whatever space was left.

“That’s illegal, man,” he said. “What do you want to do about it”?
“I dunno, what do you want to do about it”?
“Well, if we file a complaint to the NLRB it’s our word against theirs. No witnesses.”

That night I went into the studio and described to Charles what had happened. “Two hundred a week,” he said. “I would have taken it. By the way, you know that noisy pot I told you about last week?” he said, pointing at a volume control on the control board, “it’s still noisy”.

The Pru

August 19, 2010

I was at WBCN for one reason: to install a new transmitter at the Prudential Tower, and in the summer of 1971 I began going there more often. Jacques Tati probably did not use the Pru as a model for Playtime because he had Corbusier buildings to look at, but if you see that 1967 film you will get a very good idea of how the Pru was supposed to look.

I say “supposed” because the building’s sterile, cubical, glass enclosed forms had been compromised from the very beginning by the insidious Massachusetts weather, which produced several inhuman effects, some of which could presumably have been foreseen by the architects, some not. The winds channeled through the steel, glass and anodized aluminum porticoes and plazas around the base of the building often increased in a continuous wind tunnel like effect. Because the glass was arranged in such a way that one could see all the way through the expanses of glass from one side of the base to the other, birds were confused. They smashed into the glass and dropped dead in heaps in the plazas. Nets a hundred feet on a side had to be installed to try to catch the birds before they killed themselves.

Most humans had the strength to march stolidly against the Prudential winds. On the semi-enclosed escalators they could clutch at the handrails. In winter heads bowed, frozen little icicles at the end of their noses, they tried to push their way through the elegant, Modern experience as quickly as possible. In the years since these spaces have all been enclosed, and the open plazas, porticoes and walkways are gone.

Near the bottom of the long, semi-enclosed escalator leading up to the Pru Plaza from Boylston Street was the large Brigham’s Restaurant where I used to go for lunch. I ordered my tuna fish sandwich on whole wheat and paid 35 cents. I sat down at one of the clean, formica clad tables and noted the gaudy decor of the place, synchronized among the hundreds of Brigham’s Restaurants in the region. I looked around at the other patrons. Who were these mostly very young or very old, neatly polyester dressed, hatchet-faced people? The Boston Irish, of course. Anybody else could afford to eat someplace better.

Although I had expected Arnie Ginsburg, because of my inexperience, to bring in Randy Mayer, a radio manager and technician from WHCN in Hartford. (Hartford Concert Network – get it?) I was left to do the work myself. There was no possibility of delay. The circumstance beyond our control was the erection of the John Hancock tower. Its steel was within a hundred feet of the level of our old transmitter on top of the John Hancock Building next door when our new transmitter, antenna and transmission line pieces arrived at the Pru. Arnie called in electricians to do the 480 volt primary transmitter wiring. I supervised them and installed the control and audio equipment and lines. Don Prescott, a rigger buddy of Arnie’s, came in to assemble the transmission line pieces and climb the old television mast atop the Prudential to put in the new antenna. Arnie and I spent two days on the roof of the Pru watching Don at work on the highest point of the city and helping in small ways, passing the occasional tool. When Don was done, I went down to the new transmitter room and tested the new transmission line by pressurizing it with nitrogen. For a week or so I measured the pressure every day. No leaks.

The roof of the Pru was delightful, above the air pollution and noise, which melded into a general, distant roar. One calm late summer day followed another. There was no danger of harmful radio frequency effects in those days. Today, when, from a distance, the roof of the Pru appears to be forested with radio and television masts, push a piece of raw hamburger up through the hatch on the roof on a long stick and draw it back twenty minutes later, and it will be done medium rare. In 1971 we were the only high power operation up there, and our antenna was a hundred fifty feet up on the mast, eight hundred ninety-seven feet above street level. When the new transmitter was turned on we could stand directly below the antenna, in the null, not that I ever bothered to. Today, as the carrier based technology of radio and TV broadcasting begins to be replaced with processes 100 to 1000 times more efficient in energy use, digital broadcasting, the environment in transmitter-intensive locations (broadcast towers and the roofs of high buildings) will become habitable again, and technicians will be able to venture out in safety once more.

Drake’s equation contains a term for the length of time intelligent civilizations release detectable signals into space, during which, Drake supposed, intelligent beings on planets around other stars would be emitting radio-frequency energy, much in the way broadcasters were pouring out tens or hundreds of kilowatts each in 1961, when Drake first developed his SETI equation. Drake does not appear to have observed that during the lifetime of a civilization radio frequency technology would improve, becoming, from a frequency domain perspective, more and more like noise, and thus harder to detect. The television transmitters of 1961 emitted half or more of their energy at a single frequency. This monochromatic “carrier” contained no information in itself, but it always had to be on, and, because of its spectral purity, was the indication of human life most likely to be observed by hypothetical, alien radio astronomers at astronomical distances. Now broadcasting is better, the spectrum of the broadcasts has spread, powers are much lower, and the aliens will listen for us in vain.

Apology

July 9, 2010

Why am I doing this? Each of these postings takes me several hours at least to write, time which might be spent on any number of evidently more productive tasks: calling my mother; mowing the lawn; making money; enjoying life with my charming companion Helen. Some of the motivation comes from the music that issued from the 1960′s in an unparalleled wave, and the incomparable feeling of nostalgia ( a mixture of joy and sadness, dear reader) I experience whenever I am exposed, either in memory or audibly, to certain songs played on WBCN in those days. To slightly paraphrase J. – J. Rousseau: “….non seulement plusieurs de [ces] chansons me sont toujours restées dans la mémoire, mais qu’il m’en revient même, aujourd’hui que je l’ai perdue, qui, totalement oubliées depuis [ma jeunesse], se retracent à mesure que je vieillis, avec un charme que je ne puis exprimer. Dirait-on que moi, vieux radoteur, rongé de soucis et de peines, je me surprends quelquefois à pleurer comme un enfant en marmottant ces petits airs d’une voix déjà cassée et tremblante ?” * So it is to bathe, as it were, retrospectively in the melodies and memories of those years, half remembered, that I create these little vignettes.

“In the dime stores and the stations
People talk of situations
…in the terrible summer
Bloody red sun of fantastic L. A.
…like butterflies above our nation”

I also need to emphasize to myself that I was there, in a time and place and that these things really happened. If I forget I will lose an essential piece of myself. I really did work for WBCN. I really was in front of the Hines Auditorium on the night of March 18, 1971, arms locked with other demonstrators against Spiro Agnew, who was making a speech inside. Of course my account of what is “real” will conflict with the memories of others whose memory is better than mine and who can speak more authoritatively than I about certain events and personalities of the day. But that does not mean that my experience was not real.

Me, in the lower right,

Boston, 1971-3-19. Me, in the lower right, bearded, in the black hat, behind the helmeted cop.

At the same time that we had locked arms against the police in front of the Hynes, inside “Frank Sinatra joined Vice President Agnew in cocktails [before] Mr. Agnew’s appearance next door at the Sheraton Boston”, reported the Boston Globe the next morning. The front page contained the image above and a story headlined “45 Americans Died in Vietnam Last Week”. The Boston Herald Traveler also covered the near riot outside Agnew’s speech, but, unlike the Globe, gave extensive front page coverage to the disastrous defeat and retreat of South Vietnamese troops following their incursion into Laos that week. Buried inside both papers were stories about a race riot at Boston Girl’s Latin. The Herald carried a touchingly detailed story about a suburbanite father who found his son dead of a heroin overdose in an upstairs bedroom.

In the late summer of 1971, when the Union was well on its way to being installed at WBCN; when I was in a relationship with a woman, J., who for the first time in my life I could say I loved, I walked through the streets of Somerville near Inman Square on an early Saturday afternoon, on my way to J.’s apartment on Webster Avenue.
I cut from one street of rickety three deckers to another, crossing a hot, dusty playground. Two young men were crossing a ball field in front of me. I could hear rock music playing from the street across the playground. One of the men was carrying a ten inch nickel plated crescent wrench. They were happily talking to each other. One made a quick gesture with the wrench. “Why”, I asked myself, “have they painted that crescent wrench with patches of red paint?” I walked on to the street at the other side of the playground. There was a small crowd of excited children and a couple of adults. A man knelt on the ground holding a ten year old boy in his arms. The boy seemed to be unconscious. He had been beaten around the head and shoulders and was covered in blood.

* “…not only have some of these songs remained in my memory, but what I had lost is even coming back to me today, totally forgotten since my youth, re-impressed to a certain extent as I grow older, with a charm that I cannot express. Could it be said that I, in my dotage, ravaged by pain and cares, surprise myself by weeping like a child while murmuring these little songs in a voice already broken and trembling?” Confessions, Vol 1.


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